Author: Rebelsmed

Help

Narcotics Anonymous was born in 1953. A small group of people who identified themselves as addicts started to meet regularly. Some came from Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) and believed that the program could adapted to help other addicts.  There was little evidence that AA was helping addicts in a significant way. Those early members discussed what needed to change and what was working.  New groups began to form based on the same principles adopted by that first group. Members are encouraged to support a particular group. It becomes your ‘home group’. During the early stages of growth, some members and groups wanted to try and create literature to help other individuals and groups. One of the earliest examples of literature was called the ‘Buff Book’ or ‘Brown Book’. It was published in 1956 and it contained a line;

We of Narcotics Anonymous are exactly like you. We are a group of addicts who meet regularly to help each other obtain and maintain our sobriety and to stay clean.

You can view the final 1956 publication here.

I have come to believe that helping each other is a critical concept of Narcotics Anonymous and reflected a great deal in early literature. I recently started to look at this idea of helping others and the growing trend away from this principle that many see in our Fellowship.

The Little White Book

The next major writing project of the Fellowship was called the Little White Book(LWB). The LWB was highly regarded by many members.  The LWB would be used as the foundation for a book length piece of literature called the Basic Text that was published 20 years later in 1983. A 1962 revisions draft of the LWB contained the lines;

If we would live we must be free of all forms of selfishness. Self-love, self-condemnation, false pride, self-pity and self-centeredness are gradually removed, as we become aware of new values in our lives.

And;

We feel that our approach to our problem is completely realistic – for the therapeutic value of one addict helping another to recover, is without parallel. We feel too, that it is practical, for it takes one addict to thoroughly understand another, and it is in helping each other that we find it possible, to maintain a happy way of life.

Some of these phrases made it into the 1962 publication of the LWB and these ideals are repeated today in literature. The idea of helping others inspired early members to grow the Fellowship. Some members and groups also met to further develop literature by freely giving of their ideas, money and time which resulted in the early development of information pamphlets.  The LWB was distributed freely to members or at cost. Sometimes Groups or members would cover the printing and distribution costs. There was a culture of helping others present in the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous.

Self-love

It is difficult in today’s culture of recovery to see self-love as a form of selfishness.  I believe that the experiences shared in NA today are more about “help yourself” despite the literature saying we meet regularly to help each other. For some members, the Narcotics Anonymous Fellowship has become a big distraction from our primary purpose of carrying the message to suffering addicts. Some members refer to Narcotics Anonymous as an aftercare program when they are done with treatment. ‘I need a meeting’ is uttered by members and can sound like an addict looking for their next fix. I have been lulled into complacency by becoming self-absorbed and losing focus on the reason I attend regularly. Being clean and enjoying life can be as attractive as any drug. I try and maintain a balance between my needs and the needs of others. Sometimes my behaviors feel like I’m using when I interact with others. I sometimes spend more on coffee for the meeting than what I contribute at the meeting to the 7th tradition basket. That bothers me but I also need to find a balance and appreciate all that my higher power has allowed me to have and to be.

Using

Tradition 3 says we must have a desire to stop using if we are to remain a member. Awareness of self must be balanced with awareness of others in my experience.  As I recover, I have become more aware of my using. I usually start my day with coffee as a stimulant. I appreciate when others share about other ways to live, free from any mind-altering substances. I made a choice today to use coffee but I gave up the accompanying cigarette almost a decade ago.  I also appreciate those who choose another way to live and share that experience. Using coffee may be innocent but there are other forms of using that are less attractive, and sometimes quite destructive. I like telling people ‘How things are done here in NA’ because it feels good to use my clean time like a weapon. I easily develop contempt for others. Unique solutions and different ways of doing things cause me to judge. I have learned that making mistakes has benefits. I no longer see myself as a guardian of what is right in NA. I have contempt, but I do not have to act on it anymore. I try to be entirely ready to have my higher power remove this shortcoming in any situation.  

Using can become a new way of life for some addicts. Trading one addiction for another is in our literature. I often hear that experience shared by other members as they continue to use but they may not see what I see. Some members form cliques based on lifestyles, beliefs, and behaviors that look a lot like using. I often hear of members who are excluded from these cliques and have experienced that myself. I so wanted to be a part of the cliques that my behaviors became like using. I visited people and tried to make friends without realizing I was never going to be a part of. Using people attract people who are using. There were disastrous results for me. People have used me to help them move and women have used me to make their partners jealous. Some members will call me to draw support for their service motions which is a form of manipulation and is simply another form of using. People use their knowledge of the traditions to shape other people’s perceptions without regard for Group Conscience. Group Conscience is how we put aside our opinions and work with other addicts. A Group Conscience is my greatest weapon against my using when it comes to my home group.  

Taking Responsibility for My Recovery

The only requirement for membership in Narcotics Anonymous is a desire to stop using. Narcotics Anonymous does not require you participate or willingly help others but simply showing up regularly is of benefit. Members may be unable or unwilling to stop using despite long periods of abstinence. I might be frustrated with some behavior, but I have never wished someone would stop attending.  This has allowed me to develop healthy boundaries and benefits me in my life outside of recovery.  I cannot judge your desire to stop using.  Sometimes what I see as using is nothing more than another way of living. Taking responsibility for my own recovery is a powerful tool as I grow spiritually. I am careful with the people I include in my life today but I am willing to communicate with anyone.  

The Group

A minority of members support the using of literature profits by the NAWS Corporation to carry a message. Other members oppose this by using free literature for the same purpose. Every controversial choice we make as individuals separates us from other members. The same is true of Groups. Addicts are unlikely to agree on everything as a Fellowship. One group might sign attendance sheets for court ordered addicts, and another group opposes the practice. The autonomy of groups lets me dictate what I want to participate in. When I join a group, Tradition 1 says my personal recovery depends on unity. Putting aside my ideas and surrendering to a Group Conscience has been a great benefit in my recovery.  My best intentions are no match for the will of a higher power. I also have the option of choosing a different group. The choices we make as groups and individuals are influenced by not only our desire to stop using but also our decision to continue to use. It is God’s will or my will. I need to choose carefully.

2023 Cult Agenda Report (CAR)

Narcotics Anonymous Service Structures

Narcotics Anonymous World Services Corporation (NAWS) publish a Conference Agenda Report (CAR) to prepare members, groups and service bodies for the World Service Conference (WSC).  Groups are the front line of Narcotics Anonymous and they hold regular meetings to carry a message of hope to suffering addicts. New members and returning members are encouraged to support each other by joining a group and attending meetings regularly. Millions of addicts worldwide have found hope and recovery within the Fellowship of NA since its inception in 1953.  The WSC began in 1971 and was designed to bring groups together to make decisions about the future of Narcotics Anonymous. The WSC that exists today bears no resemblance to the early conferences and has very little to do with the true nature of the program of Narcotics Anonymous. The 192-page, 2023 CAR report would make an Amway Executive blush at the lies and shameless self-promotion of the NAWS Corporation. The reality is that it is very rare for either a member or group to participate in the WSC that exists today. The NAWS Corporation uses the unity that exists in Narcotics Anonymous to promote itself. The facts presented in those 192 pages perpetuate the fraud. 

Groups and Meetings

Groups often come together to form Area service bodies within a certain geographical area. Area Service Bodies come together to form regional service bodies. Many regional service bodies are defined by the political boundaries the groups they represent are in (Hawaii Region or Nebraska Region are two examples in North America). Further abroad, regions are often defined by the country of origin.  Regional bodies will send a representative to the WSC to participate in the voting on motions presented. Voting is easy today since the NAWS Corporation also publishes a Conference Approval Track so WSC attendees know how to vote. Independent thought and action are discouraged by the Cult of NAWS. What is never discussed is how little support there is from members and groups. NAWS supporters are a very small segment of the fellowship and only maintain visibility by using the huge profits generated by literature sales to promote themselves. Regular WSC attendees report that there are some Regional Delegates who vote without ever consulting with the Groups they alleged to serve. Blank tally sheets for recording votes can downloaded from the NAWS corporation but completed tally sheets are a closely guarded secret and rarely published. The most important goal of the NAWS Corporation is the protection of the publishing rights and the profits associated with publishing. Today, there is increasing number of independent publishing by groups. There is also access to free literature online. This has forced the NAWS Corporation to manipulate and control every aspect of the Fellowship in order to maintain their financial privileges’.

How many actual Narcotics Anonymous Groups exist is unknown but regional summaries have provided the following estimate.

Groups are encouraged to register with the NAWS Corporation and receive a Group ID Number. Online, virtual, and telephone Groups have existed for more than two decades but been rejected by the WSC and the NAWS Corporation.  There are no rules, guidelines or policies that differentiate face to face meetings from other types of meetings but division is an effective tool of cults and has resulted in yet another dividing point created by the NAWS Corporation.  Some estimates suggest that there are more than five thousand virtual Narcotics Anonymous Groups currently. The contribution of virtual groups during the last three years has been enourmous. During the global pandemic these groups supported members and carried a message to suffering addicts worldwide. Virtual groups have become a mainstay of the Fellowship. I would estimate that one third of face-to-face meetings have closed and online meetings are becoming standard practice with many addicts.

The end is near…

The Iran Region recently broke ties with the WSC and the NAWS Corporation. They have decided to work independently and produce their own literature.  This region was easily the largest region to have ever existed. They represented almost five thousand groups who hosted twenty thousand meetings. Many groups in Iran host daily meetings but in the US a weekly meeting is typical. The average for US Regions is two hundred and fifty groups and three hundred and fifty meetings. It would not be a surprise to see other regions follow suit in the years ahead. The Brazil Region sales of books dropped to less than a third after switching to NAWS Corporate literature pricing model. The South Florida Region found discrepancies in a limited inspection of the NAWS Corporation but that avenue of accountability will be closed after the revised ‘Fellowship Intellectual Property Trust’ is approved at the next WSC.

Tradition two of Narcotics Anonymous ensures that the ultimate authority is the group conscience that home group members freely participate in. While researching and writing my book ‘Cult of NAWS’, I came across a section from the 1980 WSC minutes. Chuck Skinner was a respected and long-time member of NA, who presided as Chair of the Board of Trustees. He was asked what should happen to groups who failed to participate in area service bodies.  Chuck’s direction was very clear; remove them from meeting lists, notify them to cease and desist, and contact World Services to take legal action if required. This kind of mindset continues today, and members will cry foul and talk about ‘the conscience of the Fellowship’ when questions arise that go against the Cult of NAWS. There is a growing Fellowship of members who promote kindness, compassion, and generosity in carrying out their goal of supporting members new and old without the governance of corrupt service structures.